10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
I could not bring myself to blog for the last two weeks. I was riding in a spiritual roller coaster. My flesh suffered and my mind went into a fluid mode somewhat. I cried to the Lord, pleading His intervention into my situation.
Some of you may remember that in early June, I suffered a second attack of cervical spondolysis - the pain in the neck. I declared that I was healed at the end of May after 4 months of continuous treatment. Just one week after that, it hit me again.
The pain caused me to loose sleep, which in turn caused me to loose concentration at work, creating more pressure which fueled the vicious cycle. I groaned and complained to God - not something that I do too often. Expressing my internal struggles to Him seemed to demonstrate that I did not trust Him. So I thought.
What I found out from reading Psalm 51 and many like it, I am assured that we CAN express our emotional struggles to our loving Abba Father. He gives us His listening ears. He is always listening, even though we think that His is not.
Ever wondered where was God when you encountered a difficult situation? Well, He was there, all those times. His silence does not mean His absence.
And so, I learned to cry with David and express His ever loving presence. I can groan and complain to Him because I know that He cares for me and will restore me.
Let me close with Psalm 73:26-28
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
27 Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
28 But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds.
God bless.
Steven
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